falling in to / dawn /

& i wonder




do you plan love for next year


& how far away / can you
move from a thot / only thots / /

they spin thru
my head too






funny how the year / folds in to
autumn / & the sun is orange glow now
low / unassuming / st.ill warm in the
after noon / / but nite reminds me

put a sweater on / / & i wish for

all day / all nite / lay my skin bare / heat

but i don't think it's coming any time soon


& i bleed in to this nite / all ways / this way / purification of
what /? / my sins /?/ oh wash a way / / & what
have you done my child / / & the crash ing of words
feint memory / / lies lies / i tell you / it's only lies

& i can't remember what it was / any more
pockets of black / / & i think / hey / fade back in to

& for a second / world be comes / new again / & i wonder
what am i talk ing about / who is this / / re birth

shoot back in to / / pure white lite

absolute absolve

& now i am fold ing back in to / / & this body eases
remembers heart beat / tries to breathe deep
pull it to gether now / / & the hot knots get hotter


just stumble through it












ride the knots / plan for heart break
seek the muse / don't cry










& once again / nite becomes a danger / / when
minds goes over board / re acts / re action /
no cause / no reason / brain cycles out / /

follow the whims of the gut / belly feels every thing
i am the centre of my centre / / & certain lee the cold
rests there / odd feel ing / empty i say / fill me with


what


& i leave the house / drink on my breath
bad habits to go
& so i go / see a bit of my world / see
what's going on / see / see / & in my town
i walk in to the bar / band plays / open stage
open / / i wait my turn / drink in hand / smoke
in hand / poems in hand / wait / drink & talk
to men / always men in the bar / & every one is
drunk / but i've decided not to drink before read ing
but in the bar / it never works out that way

on stage @ last:

it's the satisfaction of reading to an empty room
louder than the drunks / poet speaks / some listen
most drink / / clink clink / / last call of the night
& the bar maid packs a way bottles

& i wonder / wtf am i doing here ?


lost poet / / try to raise conscious thot
tell them / it's here / all in here / /

but i think /it's a lost cause in a bar on
a sun day nite / / / / / /


& i am walk ing thru dreams again
of / / stretch ed out / naked / warm


i am cover ed in my own evil / / callouse dis regard
for the soul / / i stop my journey here /


yes / i am walk ing thru dreams again
& you know / it's time less on the desert
where rock beats red against end less blue
sky / did i mention / un for give ing / /
& summer passes / waves / smiles

sorry but i'm just pass ing thru
just like / the dreams / & how they move
shift / like clouds / like the big dipper over
elephant mountain / & last year dez says
it really is the big dipper / / yes travel north
my dear / / land of big stars /

all night / earth spins past my dipper / & @ 3 am
last star on the handle falls behind the mountain
@ 5 am it swings clear & falls in to dawn / / & i am
falling too /





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