all ways / more / questions with no / end ings /

i am tired of this day


ups & downs too plenty full
to mention / & i wonder
what's going on in the sky /& why
on this particular day / so much
from so many / & why all this / crazy ness
re volves / comes back to me


my friends are having melt downs
minds leave bodies / tears roll down
faces /

schizophrenia haunts one friend / 3 thousand miles away
what can i do?

another / depressed & angry / thinks i plotted against him

another / in tears / angry / her son broke in to our house
yester day & ripped us off / /

yet another / phone call reveals a friend who is drawing
a correlation between art i commissioned & former abuse
can't finish / / / let it go i say / never mind / i say




& then there is my child / /










& i wish to be en light en ed / lift this load
it's too heavy this day / of tues day / wed nes day
day slips to night / clock turns just a bit more

& to night we are locked up tight / windows
doors / / so tight / i hold it / in my body
& i'm think ing / / i can't take this any more
want to / yes i think / i'm going to



run a way / from this day / from this
moment in time /






ah / wish for solitude / head pounds
no no / you shant / cant / uh uh / not
for / you / / let this be your peace


& my ears ring just a bit loud er
& he says / come to bed / come
watch tv / & i don't move /






frozen in so many ways /


& i am /st.ill blood let ing /


ah yes / let the crazies drain away

my sin my sin my sin / turn this body
off / shut down / this mind / /


& i'm convinced / it's some thing i've done
the karmic wheel / be ing / what goes
round / /







dave says / let it go / /
so hard to do that some times

a day of anger / of betray al
nervous / hand shaking / belly
turn / let it go




& i am rattled / i wish a / vow of silence
keep the screams / contain ed / in side


& i wonder / if i didn't talk for 40 days
would i lose my voice / & what degree of
anger / does it take /










& i think about / spiral ing / & @ what point
do fractals & paisleys be come danger ous



& just where do lost souls / get to /
i want to know / where light starts









& i / crave / a gain / alcohol
craving / some thing to shut down
ever yt hing // i am not / wisdom




















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