i'm going to chill / take it real easy
forcing my self to write
is a very difficult thing these days
i would rather play solitaire
i've been on a bender for months now
count less hours play ing cards & squares
my other addiction / so easy to numb out
to a mind less game of cards / / oh there is
a bit of think ing / a bit of / making sense out
of things / it's a good analgesia / mixed with
several joints
the beauty of this / the beauty of what
i stretch out / cat stretch es / try ing to keep
the body moving / /
the drive to the air port / took no time at
all / the traffic moved a long the high way
with ease / the day / blue / spark-i-lee hot
re flect ed off the west arm of kootenay lake
as we follow ed it / wind ing thru the valley
to castle gar /
it felt like a day of travelling / only / i'd be
going no where / except back 40 clicks to nelson
he / on the other hand / this hand / that hand
would be fly ing to the city of angels /la la land /
like he has so many times
before / hundreds of times / on to / that plane
off to a world of the rich & the very famous
i'm so far a way from you / rattles thru my head
he tells me before going thru the gate / i love you
& kiss es my mouth / /
it's sweet / bitter / i / a lone
i try to for get who i am
where i've come from / the things
i've done / /
i can't be lieve the person i've be come
& i turn to every one & say
it's so hard to let you hold me in your arms
i don't want to be held any more / /
i keep stretch ing
& think a bout the dis appoint ment
of making love /
or not /
& i hold my own body tight / pull in
& smoke
it's a damn ing thing / be ing on a
suicidal / mission /
some days / i feel like i've arrived from
hell / a dark shadow of punish ment / pain
& tho i move thru the valley of
constant pain / i shall fear / only my self
& i clean house like a maniac /
take advantage of three children gone for a month
plan my vacation to shambahla this week end
what to take / for 4 days comfort
my heart pounds / / @ the thot of
4 days on my own @ a 10 thousand people festival
i'm going to chill / take it real easy
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