like a moth / burning its thick dusty body against a hot light bulb

& bones fade in to dark ness
ambiguous @ best


who cares about bones
& just what is the dark ness
any ways




the night clear / cold / february 20 2005

our cars parked in the drive way are covered in frost

they cut down a stand of trees on the far side of the golf course
parking lot / / they left one / standing / poplar / white bark

in the summer the leaves of the poplar turn up side down when
a storm is blowing in / / shusss shusss / / the bottoms of the leaves
are soft & white / the tops shiney green






who cares about typos ?











this night settles in fast
another week end rolls past
to night we watch the life affirming
forrest gump




& i think: yes / death is sad for the living




destiny or a feather on the wind / / / where will you land





lately / i only smoke pot / tired of thinking
tired of worrying / just so






& today we walk along the beach out @ kokanee park
the water is low / the dams lower on the lake must be
running full bore / they are letting the water through

& there is a slough that is frozen over / but the heat of
the sun melts it / crackling / of course this is where my
family heads too / / & max / the eldest @ 13 runs @ the encouragement
of his step dad / / but he falters & his foot slips through & he loses
his shoe / it comes out of the water with his foot / flips off on to the ice
max jumps out of the slough & his shoe sits on the ice / alone


i walk off / pissed off / / i know the rest of the outing he will be sitting
in the car / / wet & cold / / instead of out walking enjoying the glorious
blue of the day / / / /


i walk in the closed camping area / in search of an out house / i find one
squat over the hole / & pee / hot steam

if i was a man / i would be pissing every where / just because i could















what ever that was about i'm not sure / / / leg
a tang / a pang/

of ooooh what are those nasty burning spots in my muscles




blood / clots / blood of my leg / my thigh / my cunt

runs through my vagina / dribbles / spurts / gush / oh warm

a metaphor / cycle of life / what is it / i'm not sure

i thot i died /