this is sad ness

& so rain falls heavy / thunderous funny thing is / the sun st.ill shines
the trees aglow in yellow / must be can't be / autumn again / & a car drives by whistles by / purr of engine whines downit slows / enters the golf coursepark ing lot / / oh golfers love the fall
they don't care as they speed past the house this isn't their street / only a means / a waya path / to travel / to crack / the ball / a beerenjoy the green / this is relaxation?
for the poet does not golf / she only curses golfers / & errant balls with no fore! attached to them

& see these days bleed slow lee by not a lot / not a lot / can't get any thing done / silence in the house / silence in the house time built




so these are the days of chest pains / torn torso / dull ache of cigarettes / weed / stress / dull ache of pain between the shoulder blades / stomach churns / rips /
back of the head / heavy / this is not sleep ing get through the day / walk over it / cook a meal laundry / empty the dish washer to kill time spaced out / for get be ing / & just be
some how / the back refuses to relax / fingers for get where the letters are / this is confusion chase ing time up the street days coat ed in thick lies / silent resignation
& in the back yard grass grows tall / wild / loves the rain the garden reduced / reduced to this the rain / won't stop / even now it falls relent less / white lines of wet ness this is sad ness