shallow water

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& so night time rolls back day light
gone again / hours move by & i'm wondering
if we had this conversation already



i'm certain i lived this point in time before

dejavu / the mind processing this moment as if
it were a memory / /


& see / did the sun ever shine as bright
before as it did to day / & oh those worms
i'm digging in the garden / they run from my shovel
long pink bits of flesh / slip up & out of the clumps
of grass



how much & how little

that's all i wanted to know

how much & how little

it's all i wanted to say

but you say / there is nothing

left to say / it's like saying

i burned all your letters / they

didn't mean much compared to the pink

june sky / glazed over wet green / words

became mean ing less / meaning: less

& you were forgotten . lost again / erased

like a conte' crayon / a touch up @ best


& i though / for some reason or another

i could never for get you / like one never forgets

crocus & snowdrops are the first flowers of spring

& how the garden turns that brilliant lime green

as the buds burst for ward / on ward / to ward



life is for questioning / faith is for granted

& yet a constant veil of blue smoke coats caresses

remembers me / as if i were the ash falling from the

sky / & you question me with a look of indifference

be wil der ment / wild eyed / some how i can never

question august / or september for that matter


& when the dark nights came / i questioned every thing

why why / i asked over / over again / why / & the dark

night rolled in to a ball with me / curled as if for a

small moment / i was back in side my mother //


that is when


my heart left again / or perhaps it was eye who

threw it out in to the cold december night / / you know

for years it was january / / cold / always cold / & a body

such as mine / doesn't soon for get a frozen heart / black

it turned the blackest shade of dark / nothing could be done

for it / except to wait for this season of a million moments

to end / certain lee / spring was bound to show up / if only

one waited long enough / /



so i waited.







& i lost you / can't remember what you look like









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