& night falls early on this day of
time change /
who the hell can really change the time any ways
time is
the space between this year & last
a life time
& tho i walk thru the valley of darkness
i will fear no
evil / / no
no evil
for i will walk into the valley of kings
for i will be king of kings
avail of darkness
& i cover my eyes / my face
pull down my hat / & wonder
should i light another cigarette
& each time i do / a child cries
this day has been too long / too short
& the spring air / april fails to warm
4 days in / the ground cold / the ground
always cold / / death to winter
to day i saw yellow violets / must have
must go back with a spade & pail
in my garden violets / purple / white
dainty things that they are
some one smells like violets / sweet
& the white lilies in walmart make me
thing some one has died again
yes well we are heading over to so & so's funeral
we thought we'd just stop in for your opening first
grab a burger & then head over
& life goes on / so they say
& the woman standing at the bbq flips
another rare burger on to a cold white bun
serve it up while it's hot
& the sun rises just a bit higher in the sky
if only we could see through the high cloud mass
cumulus / (heads off to dictionary dot com)
ah
altostratus
grayish or bluish layer of clouds
obscures the sun
yes / that's the one killing the sun
& so / i sit on the floor again
cold tile / electric heater @ my knee
& think about time change & stars moving around the sky
shift ing / all ways / the galaxy / sun / moon / every thing
swirls in giant circles / dust / bits of nothing / we are
so
small
on
this
planet
so
mighty
in
our
heads
what a joke / a cruel galactic godistic joke
& she / mother gaia / so alone / she travels
wounding / repairing / / spin / spin
& we grow from her / nothing with out
does each spin around the sun scare her
can she count how many times
how many stars has she fallen in love with
a series of
nothing but late night
& i burn my last stick
of nag champa
braise in the smoke of cigarettes & candle wax
i've felt cold for days now
sudden chills / malaise of the body
now to change the body's clock
& morning comes too soon / & night brings
wakeful sleep / /
& you know / just for a moment
i finally for got about you
the moment lapsed in to a day & then a night
a week went by
my heart finally stopped pounding
& then it just stopped
went cold (as they say)
& i dropped 4 tablets @ bed time
to help you sleep / relieve the pain
& remembered
i didn't need to sleep any more
i for got what i when in to the kitchen for
but it was
only for a moment / an instant in time
like say / the amount it takes for the earth
to sail around the sun one time
those measurements added up to years of my life
a billion or so / a few plates drifting here / there
a bit of intercontinental stuff / a few dinosaurs
a lot of exotic flowers / /
& i think about all the prayers right now
every one praying for safe passage on the next
trip around /
are you ready for heaven
i'm not
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