bees @ my knees

i am pulling grass for jesus

jesus / i'm pulling grass / & the
garden grows up up up

so much colour / & how do i move
the garden to the page / how can i begin
to explain /

about the bees / & wasps / & how the garden hums
with pollination / & how the raspberries canes are
bigger than they've ever been before / loaded with
raspberry buds / & how the crack of a golf ball cutting
in to the rough / makes me jump & say / fuck


i'm lost in a cloud of / a haze of june
& i can't remember how i got here /

sun fights with the clouds to stay shining
but even in the over cast / the day remains warm
muggy / & oh the flowers love this day / blue lark spur
un folds / tall /

robins rustle around in the hawthorn thicket
& one after another / golfers line up / on the tee
behind me / invisible through layers of trees
& raspberry canes / it always comes back to the canes

for summer is here / & the sound of lawn mowers
& cars racing down the road fills my ears /

so i smoke a nother joint / a nother puff / &
i light a nother cigarette / & drink more coffee

what else to do on a sunday / as the house
collapses in side / & children jump on the bed
as they watch tv in mama's room / & dishes pile
in the sink / along the counter / & laundry
never ending / never ending / never ending laundry


the garden is full of colour / texture / so much
growing / & i sit / & watch / & look / & listen
in awe

how summer compensates for winter

& how to day / 2 giant red / orange oriental poppies
open / so open / / /







fox glove blooms now / tall / elegant
pinks & whites & purples & apricots & yellows
one @ a time / each bud opens its way
up the stock /



& my pile of cigarette butts grows bigger
i thin again

chain smoking for jesus
jesus i'm chain smoking again

& i wonder what this death wish is really all about


i return to pink & purple lupins / & wild daisies
& the corner of the yard where buttercups be yellow
for what else can i call them / & we stop to find
lady bugs /

& i drink cold coffee / try to remember what i should
be doing to day

& i am grateful for wire less in ter net
& my little black lap top /




& sundays