Tuesday, May 03, 2005

lost in the garden / / / yeah / i guess i disappeared

tuesday is the day the house keeper comes
i roll up my sleeves & join her
in 3 hours we get this massive house
fairly clean / bathrooms (4)
bedrooms (4) / offices (2)
playroom / kitchen / dining/living room
music room / boot room / all the hall ways


now massive loads of laundry wait in turn
really / it would be more practical to have
2 washers & 2 dryers / also / i'm in desperate
need of a clothes line / i don't even want to imagine
how much of the hydro bill is from drying clothes


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most days i'm in the garden(s) / i love flowers
& have 8 flower beds in the back yard with an extensive
collection of flowers / i'm into perennials / i'm really into
columbine & foxglove & have several varieties of both / also delphinium
is a favourite & i have quite a few of them / i have roses / irises ( many types)
jacobs ladder / black eyed susan / valerian / lupins / purple & white echinacea
& on & on it goes / daisies / phlox / creeping phlox (which is something completely
different) / pansies / heather / lavender / clematis / lily of the valley
lungwort (boy/girl flowers) / violets / primrose / cowslips (these are
very special specimen plants that i have rarly seen in other gardens
also several varieties of campanula which are bell flowers



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i also have an assortment
of raised vegetable beds / i don't really grow that many vegetables
as slugs are a real problem / mostly i grow raspberries
strawberries / red currents / there are a couple of fruit trees
apple & italian plum / but they are still quite young & as of yet
bear no fruit / i will probably put in a few tomatoes / & will plant
beans & cucumbers in pots to grow up to enclose the back porch




i have a few herbs / mint /
oregano (trying to take over the back garden)
sage / chives / parsley / lemon balm /
several varieties of tyme (wooly, miniature creeping / creeping)
i planted it between the stone pavers so it would give off scent
when stepped on


i've been digging compost & mixing dirt / topping up the gardens
all the back gardens have been dug / grass is a major problem + several
other types of vigorous weeds / such as dandelions / & a whole bunch of
others that i really don't know the names of / but let me tell you
i know those suckers anywhere / & i'm gonna get them all / ha


damn / already the lawn needs to be mowed /

there is one more flower bed in the back corner (just below the 1st tee)
that needs to be dug & weeded / & then it's on to the front gardens
which have a northern exposure & is quite a bit behind compared to the
back yard which is south facing / /

the front gardens are really rock gardens / i've tried to keep the front
gardens which are very shady / as indiginous to the area as possible
these have mostly blooming perennial bushes / such as rhododendrons (sp?)
wild geranium / several varieties of ferns / several varieties of sedums
which are those fleshy little plants you see in every rock garden / some
of them are quite purple / others are green & spikey looking / there are
hostas / & a christmas rose ( which is an odd looking flower - it looks
as if it should be poisonous ) / then there are all the different
creeping plants that bloom a bright carpet of colour - red / purple / pink
white / i love these types of plants / some are dianthus also known as
pinks or carnations / there are over 300 species that include annual &
perennial plants / i many of both / / my prize carnation / however /
took a bad pruning from my father when he was visiting @ easter /
i hope it recovers / in case it doesn't tho - i bought several more
today which i've placed stratigically around the yard / i love the scent


i have a lot
of plants i don't know the names of / interesting specimen plants my
father has 'imported' from various locations to my garden / some things
he's brought from the forest / many things / it is interesting to note there are some
plants that can only be found growing in certain locations / particularly
mountain flowers / what you find in one valley may not exist in the next
valley over






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enough about gardening / it's the soul i want to talk about
ever lasting / always a popular topic when searching for god



&
just when
was the last time




you see / this week end @ a party i talked to a former lover
from when i was 25 & he remembered so much more about our
2 week love in than i did / i asked him why we didn't see
each other any more if we had such a great time together

& he said


you disappeared






you disappeared



i disappeared? & then i remember
the girl / with blond hair & glasses
(the only junkie i ever loved)


okay that's a lie / i've loved a few junkies


the line should read:

(the first junkie i ever loved / also the first real lesbian relationship)

how ever /// mostly we got high in her china town wooden heritage house
that was a hundred years old / the house had a strange energy to it / some thing
some thing / i can not put my finger my finger / i remember them smell of burnt
wax / she had these 3 foot high catholic supply shop pillar candles / which we burned
all night long until the air was thick with wax / heavy /

i loved those days




warm china town / summer nights / heroin / cocaine
pot / beer / vegetarian meals / /


you see / i thought i was pregnant with your baby /

i thought i was miscarrying on the bathroom floor

i thought blood was for ever / & love was just a passing thing






yeah / i guess i disappeared








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