they say

yes, so you see i'm back to that
controlling bitch i used to be

". . . said the shaking was so powerful it even disturbed the Earth's rotation."



no that's a lie / a darn down / right lie
a blue fib / a short tail /



you see, this body is broken / st.ill
it waits in tanges of short breathed spazms

it waits to see to feel to be
see what happens / / can all this

waves arms around in the air

can all this be fixed / / ?

her hair suddenly stands up
halo of / a band 18 inches around her head

red light / electrocution of eloquation
some where the words slip out making
perfect sense / not here / not now

colon. yes i have one - it hurts today
i wish for a new/ah / well then/
just sit on the edge of your seat
soon one will be on it's way



we found several thousands in the water / wet
against the sand / they were
teaming / hair float ing wet / think about all that
wet hair / /

wish i could describe the light as it
bounces pink & grey off the cloud
settled in the valley below / straight
in front of me / winter cloud / cloud
that has / oh if only i could remember

some things come to an end
some things don't

brain falters once again
words spurt out / of little consequence
or under stand ing / chest heavy with
oh it's too ominous to say / / some things
just hurt / some times it's hard to breathe



& hope the sikness has not come to her house
stomach ache flu / every one seems to have it
belly hard / turns over & over / not sure what to do
with this angry belly / curl up in to a ball & wait for
it to move thru / ah stomach sikness / plight of
the masses / the poor / the tidal waved

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so often the things that can not be seen
hurt the most / / kill

they say:


the earth rocked on her axis from this earthquake
& her after shocks have left us 'vibrating'
a jolt right thru me / you / did you feel the earth shake

did you know it was happening?

no i suppose not / not until a few hours later
when the wave (s) hit the shore wash ing you
& every thing else along with it's magnificant power
the power of a million atomic bombs
that's one hell of a wave

hang on hang on that's all you could think
before you went under the shell of blue

~*~oh that indian ocean such lovely blue water~*~




the fish the fish / can you imagine all the fish
rushing past your head / touching your face
skimming along your back / i'm swimming with a school
of fish / such beautiful blue eyed / yellow with stripes
certain lee those fish / flip flip flip / bodies shiny glint
of
not sure what to do / / fins a rapid motion

of

swim with the wave



in in in rush of ocean / rooms filled with water
up up up to the ceil ing /
if you can only hold your breath it will be ok / / /




so they don't / just give in to the shock of drowning
as the wave / oh that wave / it just pulls you / back to
the sea /// out in to the water / gone to see







i said:

just swim with the wave







& the tension drops about 50 degrees of nothing
some how the chest doesn't hurt so much now
belly st.ill

well you know / these winter flues / how they take
a body down / hard sweat / last weeks chills /
muscles that ache / vomit / the shits

& pale / oh fcuk you are fad ing / so pale
white actually / & is that death you are wear ing so
well on this late december nite / / remember:




a hunger perhaps / / of / a thirst
may be / yes i think it was thirst / one that
could not be filled / with mere words or gestures


a thirst for / a lake of water / ice blue
always fall in to the water / / head under
winter has come again / face face to the sun


oh that mother earth / she's one mean bitch
you want death she says / i'll give you death
an enormous disturbance

for mass consumption // the bodies pile up
so easy to call them that / i could be be a body too
laying arms & legs askew que / bent / bloated /
heat creates a quick rot / stench of dis ease
did you realize your body was a vehicle
of pestilence

ah in death
i am nothing / /

tell me

when did you know it was
time to come out
of the water /
time for your soul
to leave

tell me

when did your spirit rise †