sound mind lost / & something for lorna dee

some nites i just smoke in my office
when he's away


little habits we form / time alone / apart

one learns to live this way / & it is ok


to be alone / for i'm never really alone
with all these children

there is no war / except the internal one



weather holds stead / fast / autumn comes
not one hurricane lurks / only st.ill air a gainst / blue sky
oh the love lee days / / & on this nite


clouds look like fish bones / cut of waves against the shore
time / less / the days less now / gone toward winter



& yes / i mourn the loss of summer / time / well / spent
& some thing turns in side me / / body numbs more with time




& i've decided i won't be the pain any more

& tho i dwell in the valley of / dull ache /
house of my body / /





i will fear only / / waking / all ways / waking
i will only walk thru the valley of / / bolt up right

wake / wake / body never / / & i thot i slept just once
15 months a go / one nite i didn't / wake





but it's gone away now / / & now / / winds blows
the cotton wood / all ways the leaves / shussh / warm wind
cut of summer / / alls quiet / / except the rustle of the earth
such a funny place to be on this side of the sun / face away
to the nite sky / look out / eternal




stars all ways remember they are eternal / & i wonder

what about me / where's my eternal /

lost in a cold sweat / lost in an old man's dreams

last year / yes i think it was last year now

but i can't remember / / no no / / i can't




but no one hands it over / no / my eternal lost
for ever / @ least for this moment / it's gone



shallow / / & i should be running thru this valley
hot flash / of / jesus / i'm sweat ing / / hot / can't
get this hot / / & i search for a window / cold breath
of fresh / & this is who i'm changing in to ? /

i believe it will take more than serenity / more than
thots pointed @ the sky








& so i write more words / not important words
but words / none the less








summer : this side of the sun
winter : some where over there
discontent : only moments
this late nite : all ways nite
day : all ways dreams
lost : find the day
early : can't be done
finished : never
give in : no control

( i tried lorna / honest lee not an easy thing)













so i give in to cigarettes & weed / nite

when head floats above heart / looks down
disconnected / wonders about love /

thinks about lust & giving in / /









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